D E S P E R A T E :(

I feel like this despair.
if I do something different?
I've tried to sacrifice anything for you, but if you also could do the same thing for me.
I was not perfect.
I never felt okay to do anything, but why be like this.
I feel there is no point in living.
My life can only be troubling you
I hope god can take my life
I may be asked to live a thousand years from now, if I can be happy :)
I was desperate, I'll wait until I'm gone for good

so, i make something :)

1. introspection my self
2. do apologize
3. spend my time and have fun with friends
4. do something that is never done
5. kissed boyfriend and parents for the last time
6. greetings with parents,friends, etc.
7. do nothing
8. make them hate me
9. looking for someone to be my successor
10. I hope god can take my soul

i hope it will be better :)